reasons..

i am...here..
...not alone....
..i'm here...


..waiting.....

mad mad mad...fun

ian has my temper, and sara too. everyday, these two have nothing less to impress me. mad house!!! hehehe.

as sara would say "i wove you,daddy", that'd have done it...
"i wove you too, baby"
ian would follow by saying "(intelligle mumble mumble)ove you, daddy", that's double doses of silent joy.

so much wove, so much fun..so krweizee...

wook, we can only fuss about so much stuff, but these twinkies will melt those away in a heartbeat. Ian e-stuck and Sara missing-alphabet-L girl will help u un-stucked.

i wove you aww.

the one..

i witnessed the change that we'd anticipated. it's not about color of the skin. it's intelligence that we've hungered for. the power of unity finally materialized, though there are some that will continue to ignore the importance of equality, and cling onto the naive beliefs. it should never be about color, though today, it's undeniable a significant historic moment.

there's hope, there's change coming, there's signs of relief. the support to better the lives of the masses is forming..

we have hope.

thank you, Obama.

here they are..

..that was then...and...

during a conversation with my wife, i have mentioned that i have always wanted to be a national geographic photographer. at least that was my dream profession. that was a long time ago. as we all know, we make changes and compromises due to circumstances arose. i do have my share of regrets for not latching on to the opportunities when they were presented to me. and there again, the circumstances thing again. that was a long time ago...

i do missed the hands-on processing with the chemicals and papers. the chemicals containers and papers and the enlarger are collecting dust presently while i reluctantly transferring to the digital era.

i have had my nikon digital for a little while now and am still trying to figure out the finer ways to utilizing the unit. it's an expensive hobby in a way, yet is a little cheaper in comparison to film camera. i love my f4, and was aiming for the d3... and that's my camera story.....

...now, back to reality.............

what happenned??..

don't you miss those years when you'd to walk up to the tv and turned the tube on by pressing a huge button, or turned the channel knob that looked more like a dead bolt..trakk...trakk...trakkk...to your fav channel (even though there might be only three to choose from)? placed a blue screen on your black and white tv so that shows looked better ( no longer black and white!!). some other times, you placed an split filter instead of the blue screen ( waalaaa!!) you'd upgraded your b&W to color.
today, the tv's come in all sizes and shapes and screens, so sleek and you can't find any buttons or knobs on it. oooo, that's what remote controls are created for, i see. sometimes, i feel like you'll need a gps system for all your remotes..sound rediculous yet feels so true. speed dials..touch screen...
i don't miss the 8 tracks, cassettes, boom boxes, radios that had 10-foot long antennas, though those were the cool things... don't you feel old??

just mumbling...

trust or trust not....i think Yoda the 2nd said that. where do we find truth nowadays, or if truth a make-believe, an illusion? we as a whole live in an environment of our choice presently, which could lasts a lifetime. we believe some good would come through when we work hard for it..for the best. i wish all our efforts will becoming reality, i believe we have endured much hardships, thus we must continuosly to rise above through these trying times. fighting doubts..and i trust this is the right medicine to our despair.......show me the light....

forever...

so peaceful..on their faces..so calm the moment...they are sleeping...and growing...
that moment burns into my mind, freezes me...

seek and provide securities, i think to my self..

my lil ones...lift up my spirits
my lil ones...give me the answers
my lil ones...my reflections

i'm here for as long as i can...to support...
...to cherish and love...

my lil ones...

for you...

a-sim
a-suk
a-bee
a-loi
a-leong
a-fung
a-yen



love,
a-hua

lil and not so lil ones..

nothing...

i'm having a brain fart.